Seasonal Affective Disorder is Real!

I have my ups and my downs. Normal people do, right? Today, is the first of cool days in the summer to fall transition. Today, the sun has hidden itself on the other side of the universe and not visible here. However, today is different than a summer day full of clouds and or rain. Today, I feel the effects of the weather change. My favorite time of year is officially here. It is just that, when fall arrives the sun stops shining as bright and until spring, I live in a space where anything can send me spiraling into a deep dark corner. What's wrong? Are you o.k.? I guess, the problem I have is trying to battle the clouds and my happiness. Although, I suffer from Seasonal Affective Disorder, it to has its ups and downs. Tomorrow, I may not feel like the next look, touch, or TV commercial is the first domino falling down. Maybe it will be a day full of energy and happiness that will keep me from standing on the edge. No, I am not suicidal and yes, I pray. These feelings are not to be ignored by those who suffer. Are their medications to stop this? Yup, but who wants to spend money on a man made drug that could result in other problems. Today, I am just SAD, tomorrow is a new day and that may contain a new set of problems. It may all go back to me feeling lost, confused, disappointed, snappy, aggravated. It could have me feeling like me again. The energy driven person people love. 

Maybe the sun will shine on me.